A Letter to Lovers Long Languished

my life has had plenty of
distractions
well meaning gropes at grasping through the gloom
for truth
for meaning
for love
love that wasn’t
I never understood
why someone wouldn’t want
such great depths

but now I see
it was you,
not me
such expanse you’d never known
the depth and vastness
that is me

and you knew and you saw